It has been awhile...
Life decided that chaos should ensue and the sweetness was masked slightly. Lost focus and was in desperate need of some perspective. Being a person who craves harmony, I tried to do a little cleaning out of the mind and have found over my years that the best way for me to do this is to rearrange and reorganize the house. So off to work I went this past week...
As I was cleaning my desk (which is this old style teacher desk that weighs like 400 pounds) I came across a notebook where I used to write down all my favorite quotes. As I flipped through it one quote in particular caught my attention.
"Ask the ocean where it meets the sand and it will tell you, depends on where you stand"
Love this!
Life is all about perspective. This quote was my reminder that how I see things is relative to where I stand. If I am standing on the boardwalk then it appears that the ocean touches the sand way way over there. However, if I am standing and letting the tide tickle my toes then I would have to say that the ocean meets the sand right where I am.
Is either answer wrong? No. Both are correct. How can both be right? Well, something being right or wrong has everything to do with ones perspective and where they stand.
Back to life and the havoc of the past few months...
I have been so overwhelmed with all that is going on. Dealing with kiddos, work, family deaths, crazy family members, new puppy, started school, working full time and what is turning out to be the almost end of a bitter divorce... life wasn't seeming so sweet. Then by some cosmic force I stumble across this quote.
(Lightbulb goes on here)
So what if life hasn't been all cupcakes and gum drops lately? Life ain't perfect. I ain't perfect. So why would I expect life to always sail along in the perfect way? I know better than that... I know that people grow the most out of the hard and trying times. Pain and hardship are awesome motivators of change. I know all this!
Silly girl I say to myself. Why have I been fighting against this change so hard? Well, cause I wasn't seeing it as an opportunity for change. I was caught up in the mess of things and had not yet been able to see the whole picture... by trying to focus on a little detail here and another little detail there I was unable and blinded to what the picture looked like.
Take a step back...
Take a deep breath...
Maybe a "goosefraba" or two...
Okay. I am focused now. So I do realize that things haven't been peachy lately but can now see they weren't really as bad as I thought.
Dealing with kiddos: my oldest had casts on both legs and a back brace for her scoliosis which was tough to get used to. My youngest is having friend drama. But they are both happy and healthy and just cool kiddos and I know I am one blessed momma.
Work: work is work. I work 12+ hour shifts in the back of an ambulance on a 3 on 1 off 3 on 7 off shift. That can make for a very long week. I do, however, love my job and figure I have a pretty sweet deal seeing as I get two weeks off a month.
Family deaths: I have buried two dear family members this year to date. My mamaw back at the end of January and my love's father the middle of March. While both were in pain and I know they are in a better place, those thoughts really don't make it any easier. Yet, I am glad to have known them both and will keep the good memories in my head so I can smile.
Crazy family members: everyone has them. I think my family got a little more than its fair share but hey, keeps it interesting!
New puppy: her name is Roxie and she is a 3 month German shepherd Doberman mix. She is the sweetest, softest, smartest puppy ever and while it is a lot of work dealing with a new puppy, her wagging tail and puppy breath are worth it.
Starter school: yep, with everything else I do I decided to do some more school. I have my EMT certification and have now decided to get my CNA too. I love the medical field and have a passion for the older generation. Plus, as a mommy who hasn't gotten child support from her ex in over a month and whose ex is currently $1450 behind, I need a part time job... so homework here I come.
Working full time: see work above...
Bitter divorce: it is turning out that way. He wants joint custody but doesn't pick them up when he is supposed to which leaves me in a bind. Hasn't been paying his child support like he should. And a whole list of other things... so it looks like it will be a nasty one. The plus side of this one? Well, I know I am a good momma and will fight with all I am to make sure my girls are taken care of so one for me on the super mom scale!
There are so many other things going on but in light of my found quote I am going to put back on my rose colored glasses and enjoy my lemonade made with the lemons I was given.
And count my blessings...
Life decided that chaos should ensue and the sweetness was masked slightly. Lost focus and was in desperate need of some perspective. Being a person who craves harmony, I tried to do a little cleaning out of the mind and have found over my years that the best way for me to do this is to rearrange and reorganize the house. So off to work I went this past week...
As I was cleaning my desk (which is this old style teacher desk that weighs like 400 pounds) I came across a notebook where I used to write down all my favorite quotes. As I flipped through it one quote in particular caught my attention.
"Ask the ocean where it meets the sand and it will tell you, depends on where you stand"
Love this!
Life is all about perspective. This quote was my reminder that how I see things is relative to where I stand. If I am standing on the boardwalk then it appears that the ocean touches the sand way way over there. However, if I am standing and letting the tide tickle my toes then I would have to say that the ocean meets the sand right where I am.
Is either answer wrong? No. Both are correct. How can both be right? Well, something being right or wrong has everything to do with ones perspective and where they stand.
Back to life and the havoc of the past few months...
I have been so overwhelmed with all that is going on. Dealing with kiddos, work, family deaths, crazy family members, new puppy, started school, working full time and what is turning out to be the almost end of a bitter divorce... life wasn't seeming so sweet. Then by some cosmic force I stumble across this quote.
(Lightbulb goes on here)
So what if life hasn't been all cupcakes and gum drops lately? Life ain't perfect. I ain't perfect. So why would I expect life to always sail along in the perfect way? I know better than that... I know that people grow the most out of the hard and trying times. Pain and hardship are awesome motivators of change. I know all this!
Silly girl I say to myself. Why have I been fighting against this change so hard? Well, cause I wasn't seeing it as an opportunity for change. I was caught up in the mess of things and had not yet been able to see the whole picture... by trying to focus on a little detail here and another little detail there I was unable and blinded to what the picture looked like.
Take a step back...
Take a deep breath...
Maybe a "goosefraba" or two...
Okay. I am focused now. So I do realize that things haven't been peachy lately but can now see they weren't really as bad as I thought.
Dealing with kiddos: my oldest had casts on both legs and a back brace for her scoliosis which was tough to get used to. My youngest is having friend drama. But they are both happy and healthy and just cool kiddos and I know I am one blessed momma.
Work: work is work. I work 12+ hour shifts in the back of an ambulance on a 3 on 1 off 3 on 7 off shift. That can make for a very long week. I do, however, love my job and figure I have a pretty sweet deal seeing as I get two weeks off a month.
Family deaths: I have buried two dear family members this year to date. My mamaw back at the end of January and my love's father the middle of March. While both were in pain and I know they are in a better place, those thoughts really don't make it any easier. Yet, I am glad to have known them both and will keep the good memories in my head so I can smile.
Crazy family members: everyone has them. I think my family got a little more than its fair share but hey, keeps it interesting!
New puppy: her name is Roxie and she is a 3 month German shepherd Doberman mix. She is the sweetest, softest, smartest puppy ever and while it is a lot of work dealing with a new puppy, her wagging tail and puppy breath are worth it.
Starter school: yep, with everything else I do I decided to do some more school. I have my EMT certification and have now decided to get my CNA too. I love the medical field and have a passion for the older generation. Plus, as a mommy who hasn't gotten child support from her ex in over a month and whose ex is currently $1450 behind, I need a part time job... so homework here I come.
Working full time: see work above...
Bitter divorce: it is turning out that way. He wants joint custody but doesn't pick them up when he is supposed to which leaves me in a bind. Hasn't been paying his child support like he should. And a whole list of other things... so it looks like it will be a nasty one. The plus side of this one? Well, I know I am a good momma and will fight with all I am to make sure my girls are taken care of so one for me on the super mom scale!
There are so many other things going on but in light of my found quote I am going to put back on my rose colored glasses and enjoy my lemonade made with the lemons I was given.
And count my blessings...
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